Austin Testimonial Restore Verified Alumni
From Apathy to Empathy.
"Apathy" - (noun) - a lack of feeling, interest, emotion, concern or passion.
This is how I felt when I walked into my 15th consecutive treatment center at the age of 24 which happened to be Restore Health & Wellness. At this point in my addiction, I felt completely hopeless that I would ever be able to stay sober. I felt helpless, border-line suicidal, depressed and mainly apathetic toward life in general. Despite all of these feelings, the fact that I was even in yet another treatment center meant that I was in fact still seeking help, and although I had sought help before, lessons in life repeat as needed and the teacher doesn't appear until the student is ready. I used to hate when people told me that addiction is a disease. I used to hate the word "God" and hate the idea of spiritually. What happened next for me; however, could only be explained as a spiritual experience. I met a man named Vinsent that completely changed my life. In his words, Vinse probably wouldn't say that he "changed my life", but that he just helped me reconnect to my true authentic self. "You won't remember everything I say to you while you're here, but you will remember how I made you feel." He was definitely right about that. My parents never fully understood why I couldn't quit using heroin. Vinse, and the rest of the team at Restore, understood exactly how I felt and exactly why I couldn't stop on my own, but he also informed that there is a solution this problem. Through a lot of hard work (yes, it was hard, but not as hard as putting myself and my family through complete hell over and over again) dedication and overwhelming support from the caring staff at Restore, I was able to understand what addiction actually is, and I was given a platform to put in the work that is necessary to stay clean and sober. Today, I have 18 months sober. I've honestly never been happier and more at peace in my entire life. Restore Health and Wellness loved me until I learned to love myself, showed me how to get sober and maintain sobriety, and even gave me a job working as a Behavioral Technician, which I would later go on to become a Case Manager. I now work in treatment and get to help people all of the time. Today, I live my life in complete gratitude for the gift of sobrietyand the ability to pass along what was so freely given to me.
I no longer feel apathetic. As a matter of fact, my life is filled with interesting people, fun, passion and an overall lust for life. I consider myself to be extremely empathic now and whenever I hear a fellow addict in early recovery say that nobody understands what they're going through, I look them right in the eye, smile, and say.. "Yes we do."
"Empathy" - (noun) - the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.